The one year love saga ends today

The day when heart broke

“Hey look at her…come on at least look at her, she is indeed beautiful” … I stupidly looked back to see a girl who was standing on the corridor.
“Isn’t she beautiful” she said expecting me to jump up with excitement. Now what sort dull question that can be? Obviously the girl in the corridor was beautiful but so what. And why is that boys are expected to drool at all the second girl they see?

The fact is that when a girl is very persistent in showing you girls who are beautiful, it is a new way to let you know that she is not interested in you and you better look somewhere else.

Today is supposed to be my heart-break day. I had been admiring a girl since a year now. I fell for her out of confusion but that was in fact a beautiful thing to happen. Like a good guy I never enforced my feelings on her. I even gathered all the courage to tell her how I feel for her; made sure that I keep her smiling whenever she is in my company. I had been extra care full as in not to hurry up with anything in this relationship. But as I said, today is my heart-break day; she very sweetly made it clear that I must retreat in whatever I am doing and restrict myself to a good friend. This is almost after a year.


Pyar Ke Side effect

Now here is one more stupid thing that’s happening in my mind. I have somehow lost interest in girls. I even don’t intend to develop interest in boys. But on a serious note I feel like what-the-hell-just-happened. I also sense a feeling of hatred for girls and also for this word ‘friend’.
I have always believed a good relationship starts with good friendship. Just forgot about the multiple exceptions to that rule. The biggest one is, a good friendship ends up only being a good friendship. Oh… how much irritated I feel!


The paradigm shift

Now it is time to give a jolt to emotions and have an intro with the facts.

Fact 1 - Girls have some sort of secret equation with variables like, Dad, Mom, Bro, Sis, pets, society, close  friends etc. etc. and it is quite hard that you simplify to be the logical answer which corresponds to affirmation to all the used variables. Don’t ever bother to understand the logical stand of the equation if you are rejected.
Fact 2 – Hope is a random variable and mostly turns out to be negative
Fact 3 – Being good is nothing to do with developing a good relationship. Being bit mean may work out better.
Fact 4 – Every ‘single’ looks at a happy ‘couple’ and every ‘couple’ finds a ‘single’ happy. Life is just an illusion. If you get bored with yourself, it is highly probable that you will get bored even if you have a partner.
Fact 5 – Better have some dignity when you break-up.

That’s all I have to give to the society on this memorable day.

Chapter 1 - Confession - The Murder

I was quite sure that I won’t hold a pen to write down stories but maybe this will not look like a story to some of the real person involved. In case you got an invite to read this story from me be sure you are in this story or may be some character in this story knows you. Yes you thought it right, you may be not knowing the character.

I would start with a fact; I murdered someone. There is a police case; I read it on newspapers every day. My phobia with paper has been so much that I am scared of any large piece of paper or the sound of the page. There had been days when I would madly look for the specific news in the in the newspapers. Almost all the prominent newspaper covered the news. All of them declared it to be an accident except one newspaper. No, I won’t tell you the name of the particular newspaper. But I had to make sure that that newspaper must not reach to any room in my hostel. I had been flushing the papers into the loo; hours together. It was just one thing that the reporters of that newspaper found, and put a picture of it; all my friends here know that it belongs to me. I won’t tell you that thing too.

It is such a pity that the most prominent news of a day soon decays on the subsequent days. And this so called public is so much forgetful. During my hunt for that news the other days, I found that that news was given just a square inch of page somewhere in between. It took me hours to find. Internet was not an issue for me; it is simple enough to hack wireless routers and block a site.

Today it was a nice weather in the evening and thought of a long ride. The news of the murder had totally disappeared from the newspaper and did not find any linking blogs to that news too. I had also un-hacked the wireless routers of my hostel. I felt free. As I reached the main gate to make the entry (that is required when one gets out of campus) I saw the gatekeepers shouting at two people on a bike. It was strange one was holding a camera and was recording anyone entering or exiting the campus. All I got to know is that these two, relatively young guys have been doing this since 4 days. Now that was annoying to me too.

I was jobless today and I thought of following those two guys.

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Chapter 2 – The Addiction

I was supposed to be back within an hour; but it took me 4 hours; still I must say I did it more smoothly this time. Also I thank the timely rain and the dark shirt I was wearing; the stains were not visible easily; the blood stains.

…to be contd

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